I keep trying to explain the Grammy necklace thing but I can't do it out loud so I'm writing it down instead

It's a clover made of four tiny hearts connected with magnets. You pull the clover apart into hearts. You click the hearts back into a clover.

Heart when you need love, clover when you need courage. That's what Grammy wrote on the card.

The click is this tiny magnetic snap that's so satisfying your hand keeps going back to it.

In class, on the bus and even in bed, my hands just find it.

It's like a fidget thing where every time I click it, I think of Grammy for a half second.

Here's how the texting started.

One morning, I sent Grammy a photo without thinking while wearing the Clover. No words. She sent back a clover emoji.

Next morning, I sent myself wearing the hearts and Grammy sent back "I'm with you today sweetheart."

That was five months ago. I haven't missed a morning since.

Here's how it all began.

Grammy showed up one Sunday with four boxes. One for each of us. No occasion.

She told my mom that one day, she was sitting at her kitchen table at midnight trying to think of what we actually have from her after she was gone. Not memories. Actual things. And it was nothing. Six years of just Venmo notifications.

Grammy then went on search and found these necklaces. She almost only bought one but went back to get three more after thinking about my sister and cousins.

She said that was the best decision she ever made. She was right.

Mia sends Grammy clover before every game. Grammy sends back a voice note saying she's proud. Mia replays it in the locker room. She made me swear not to tell Grammy. Sorry Mia.

Chloe is ten. She FaceTimes Grammy before every dance recital and holds the pendant up and says "you're coming with me."

Rosie is seven and she told her teacher that Grammy lives in her necklace!

If Grammy had only bought mine none of this would exist. It would have just been me and a necklace. Instead it became this thing with all of us.

Grammy thinks she gave me a necklace. She didn't.

She gave me a person I call at midnight when I can't sleep. A person I called from the parking lot after my driving test. A person who knows about the boy I like and the panic attack I had before my presentation and things I can't tell anyone else.

A half second of clicking turned into a text. The text turned into a conversation. The conversation turned into a relationship I didn't even know I was missing.

Now, Grammy wakes up to four texts from four girls before she even makes coffee. She used to see nothing on her phone every morning. Just a quiet kitchen and a quiet phone for years.

She told my mom last week: "I wasted years being afraid of getting it wrong."

She loved us the whole time but she just didn't know we needed something to hold.

Here's one question I get asked a lot. Does it hold up? I've showered in it, slept in it, worn it into the pool. Five months of daily wear and the magnets still click perfectly.

Grammy was worried we'd ruin them. We haven't. The thing is indestructible.

Grammy got ours from here: www.hello-arlo.com

She bought four. It's only $62 each because she bought more than one. 1 for each granddaughter. Later, she even went back to buy 4 more. 2 different colors for herself, 1 for my mother and 1 for my aunt.

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