1) I can't stop clicking it

The click is the part that gets me.

The magnetic snap when the hearts click back into a clover is the most satisfying thing. My hand finds it constantly. In class, on the bus, in bed before I fall asleep. I don't decide to do it. My fingers just find it and start clicking.

It's like a fidget thing except every time you click it you think about her for a half second. Not a big emotional moment. Just a flash. Grammy. Click. Back to whatever I was doing.

That's how everything started. The clicking put her in my head without me trying.

2) I text Grammy every morning now

It started because I was clicking one morning and sent her a photo without thinking. Clover side up. No words. She sent back a clover emoji. Next morning I sent hearts. She sent back "I'm with you today sweetheart."

That was months ago. I haven't missed a morning since.

Before this, I texted her maybe once a month and it was always "thanks Grammy!!" after a Venmo notification. Now she's the first person I text every day. Not because anyone told me to. Because once I started I just didn't stop.

3) It got me through the worst month of my life

I don't usually talk about this. January was terrible. A lot of stuff happened at once and I couldn't talk to anyone about it.

But I could click the pendant. I pulled it apart before every exam. I snapped it back together on the bus home. I held the four little hearts in my palm at 2am when I couldn't sleep.

One night I texted Grammy just "hearts." No photo. Just the word. She replied in maybe ten seconds. "I'm here sweetheart." She didn't ask what happened. She didn't call my mom. She just said she was there and waited.

That text is the reason I'm writing this list.

4) My sister and my cousin started doing it too

My sister sends Grammy clover before every game. Grammy sends back a voice note saying she's proud every single time. My sister replays that voice note in the locker room before tip-off. She told me and made me swear not to tell Grammy. Sorry.

That never happened before. Not once in six years of Venmo.

My cousin is seven. She told her teacher that Grammy lives in her necklace. The teacher called her mom to check Grammy was okay. She is. She just lives in a necklace now apparently. My cousin clicks it before bed every night and tells Grammy about her day through it. Like Grammy can hear her through the metal.

5) Grammy doesn't feel invisible anymore

I found out later that Grammy used to sit there after my texts thinking she was disappearing from our lives. She never told me that. I only know because she told my mom and my mom told me.

She used to check her phone every morning and see nothing from any of us. Just a quiet kitchen and a quiet phone. For years.

Now she wakes up to texts from all three of us before she finishes her coffee. She wakes up early just to be ready for them. She replied to mine this morning in eleven seconds. She was already holding her phone.

My mom said Grammy cried when she told her about it. Not sad crying. The other kind.

6) My mom ordered one for herself

My mom watched us wearing ours for about a month. She saw us hold them up on FaceTime. She saw my sister texting Grammy before games. She saw my cousin talking to Grammy through hers at bedtime.

Then one morning she just showed up at breakfast wearing one. She said "don't say anything." She was crying a little though so we definitely said something.

Now Grammy gets four texts before coffee instead of three. My mom sends hers from the car before work.

7) Three of my friends asked about mine

My friend Sophie's grandmother ordered one after Sophie showed her. Now Sophie and I both wear clover on exam days.

I've been wearing mine every single day for months. I've showered in it, slept in it, accidentally worn it into the pool. The magnets still click perfectly. It looks the same as day one. Grammy was worried we'd ruin them. We haven't.

8) Grammy told mom she wishes she'd done it sooner

Grammy said: "I should have done this years ago."

She almost only bought one. Just mine, to see if I'd even like it. Then she stood there and went back for more. She's never been so glad she changed her mind. She said if she'd only bought one it would have just been my thing. It wouldn't have become a family thing.

She showed up on a random Sunday with four little boxes. My dad said "what's the occasion?" She said: "There isn't one."

She also told my mom she was terrified to give them to us. She thought we'd open the boxes and wish she'd just sent money.

Grammy. Come on.

We would have worn it that same day even if it was ugly. It's from Grammy. That's all that matters.

She didn't waste years. She loved us the whole time. She just didn't know we needed something to hold.

That all happened because she gave us something real instead of money.

Before these necklaces I loved Grammy from far away. Holidays and birthdays and thumbs up emojis. Now she knows about my friends. She knows things I can't tell anyone else. She knows more about my life than most of my friends do.

Grammy got ours from a place called Hello Arlo at www.hello-arlo.com

If you're a granddaughter, send this to your grandmother. She's not going to find it on her own.

If you're a grandmother, she'll wear it. I promise. She'd trade every dollar you ever sent for one thing she could hold at 2 AM and feel like you're there. The only thing Grammy got wrong was waiting.

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